Searching in Desperation

Desperation. I can't think of any other word to describe the feelings I have right now while I spend hours searching and analyzing the huge number of ways to make more money online.

Knowing that my world is falling apart around me and not being able to do something right this minute to stop it sends me into a tailspin.

Since my partner became seriously ill we have both spent time away from earning opportunities. He is self-employed also and a sole proprietor of his business, so when he doesn't work he doesn't earn. Nor do I. I have tried to maintain the $500 income that I have been making but this month I think I am going to miss the mark by around $100. Unless I can find another way to earn some more income.

For reasons that I am unable to go into at this time I am unable to work outside of the home. In addition working at home allows me to assist my partner when and where possible, both with his health issues and with his business (auto related). So that leaves me with seeking additional methods of earning extra money.

In an ideal world I need to make $5000 a month. I can manage if I can only make $3000 but the larger amount would mean that my partner would not need to work, and therefore would not feel guilty when his health prevented him from doing so (which happens often). As you can see I am a long way from my ideal income. Oh, and that amount is just to survive. Not a lot of fun money in there. One of the joys of living in Orange County is that it is expensive and so for us to maintain the very quiet lifestyle we have right now we need $5000 a month coming into the household.

I openly admit that I am looking for easy and fast ways to make money online. Oh, and legal! I might be desperate but I will not stoop to breaking the law or doing something that would cause me to feel ashamed. Selling on eBay gives me almost instant money each time a sale is made but so far I have not been able to average more than $500 a month. That is something that I will share more about in future posts.

Dealing from a position of desperation is not a good thing to do for several reasons. The main reason is that you jump on every opportunity that comes along, and then find that its all a crock of $hit. If I had $1 for every 'make money online' lead I followed down a rabbit hole I would be spending my time figuring out what stocks to invest in instead of continuing to search.

If you find yourself wanting to just sit down and cry because you have spent countless hours looking for a money making idea that really works, and your stomach is twisted in a knot, I feel for you because I have been there. For that matter I am there right now as I write this post. It's paralyzing sometimes.

When this happens it is imperative that you step back from the problem. Take a walk. Go and soak in a warm bath for a little while. You will feel torn, guilty even, because you know that every minute you spend away from the computer is a minute longer it is going to take to find that 'ah ha' idea. Give yourself permission to take half an hour away from the search. Your mind, body and spirit will all thank you for it. A therapeutic break will mean that when you get back to the computer you will be in a better frame of mind and somewhat rested. This will make your search more effective.

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